The last few weeks I’ve seen an uptick in my post on the Dedication Feast I threw when I officially Dedicated to Freya back in April. It was one of my first posts on the blog, and honestly probably not one of my better ones. I’ll be updating it in bits and pieces over the next few weeks.
This piece was one that I hadn’t posted. This is the actual contract that I made with Freya prior to my dedication. The version here is an abridged version; some of my oaths were private and remain so. It didn’t matter how many times I read this, out loud or to myself–I still cried when I read it at the Feast.
(I cry when I read it even now. I have never been a crier; I blame it on Freya’s influence. Damn that big sensitive heart, anyway.)
Contract for Freya, 3/14/14
Freya, I offer you my dedication. I stand here as your child, as your intermediary between Vanaheim and Midgard, the realms of the living and the realms of the dead.
I ask you to guide my way here in this world. You, being a Goddess, know so much more than I ever can. From many years of working with you, I know that you love me more than I can begin to comprehend. I know that you make my life brighter by being in it. You give me gifts I would not have thought to ask for; you fulfill wishes I didn’t know I had. You help me love myself and see beauty in all things in the world. You help me grow, and you give me the strength, wisdom, and confidence to help others grow on their paths as well.
I know that the gifts you gave to me have been freely given. But I know that I owe you in return.
In return, I offer to be your agent here on earth. I will spread the word about your gifts and mysteries, and promote the Vanir and the Aesir and Heathenry as a whole where I can. With your help, I will strive to be an example of a loving, compassionate priestess with a positive, healthy God-relationship. I will be a living example that having a relationship with any of the Gods can be a gift beyond all imagining.
I know that being your priestess will not be easy. I know that your path is an unusual one and that I will face circumstances that I cannot now predict. I also know that being your priestess is to walk a path of service, and that in order to serve and help others I must first know and love myself. I will strive to do the necessary footwork to handle any and all challenges and learning experiences. I ask that you give me the option to handle these challenges in as much of a positive and relatively pain-free way as I can. I know that only by doing my side of things will I be able to reap the benefits of your hard work on my behalf, and thereby become a better priestess on your behalf.
I can only offer what I have to give. If I am struggling financially, physically, emotionally, or spiritually, I will not be able to act as your emissary as often or as fully as either of us would like. I ask that you give me the opportunities to gain security and contentment in these areas so that I can do your work more fully and well.
As a Goddess of the Vanir, I know of your love for the physical pleasures of this world. I offer you use of my body in order to interact with nature, other living creatures, and all of the delights of this world. I trust that, as a goddess of personal boundaries and self-respect, while inhabiting my body in any way you will always respect whatever my physical and emotional needs are at any given time. I take joy in your visits, and I ask only that, when you leave, you leave enough of yourself in me so that I can sense you when I return and know that I am not alone.
Though I ask to dedicate myself to you, I know that I will also have other relationships with other entities. Some of these relationships will be at your urging; some will not. Know that of all my other relationships with all other non-human entities, my relationship with you will be primary. I consider myself your daughter and ask that you defend me from any other entities should the need arise.
I ask that, when all is said and done, and I am to go from this physical life, you take me with you to your Hall in Vanaheim that I might rest with all those who have gone before me.
I dedicate myself to you.