Blame It All On Yourself, Cause She’s Always A Woman To Me

The most she will do is throw shadows at you / but She’s always a woman to me

Midnight musings:

I knew a guy a while back, many years before my initiation with Freya, who absolutely hated Her. I can’t remember at this point if he was pissed because he felt She guided him to a horrible relationship, or if it was that the ex who spurned him had worked with closely with Freya, or what–but he brought his hatred of Her up quite frequently. It was very surprising to me; he is really the only person I think I’ve ever interacted with who has had this intense, personal hatred of Her.

Generally, in my experience acting as Her priestess, most people are fond or very enamored by Her. A few are wary and occasionally even afraid, possibly because the kind of passion She can so easily incite can lead people to making what are, in hindsight, poor decisions. (It’s what any kind of passion does; passion can have a price.) But people actually hating Her is very rare.

And it made me think, then as well as now, if his hatred had more to do with him and whatever issues he brought in than it did with Her. In addition to other red flags, it made me very leery of a relationship with him.

Freya will, in my experience, reflect back whatever She wishes you to see. She can show you your beauty, and she can show you the things that are keeping you from realizing your full potential. Her work is powerful and emotionally raw and transformative. It can be very overwhelming. So I imagine that if someone has irritated Her, She very probably could mess them up in many intense ways. But what would someone have to do to possibly get her to fuck with them that much, I have to wonder? Wow.

(I mean, Freya doesn’t love everyone–She’s not Jesus, or some kind of compassionate saint–but still, I’ve only ever seen her love, inspire, and heal people, even if that healing is not comfortable or fun.

So I think that–if you ever find yourself in a love/hate relationship with Freya–or any other love deity, for that matter–check yourself first and see what it is that you have brought to the party. If you have issues with women in particular–with sexual women, or powerful women, or women who just won’t complacently fit in–yeah, you probably will run into some problems with Her. But if you don’t…. well then, enjoy the ride.

She can kill with a smile, she can wound with her eyes.
And she can ruin your faith with her casual lies.
And she only reveals what she wants you to see.
She hides like a child, but she’s always a woman to me.

She can lead you to love, she can take you or leave you.
She can ask for the truth but she’ll never believe.
And she’ll take what you’ll give her as long as it’s free.
Yeah, she steals like a thief, but she’s always a woman to me.

Oh, she takes care of herself, she can wait if she wants
She’s ahead of her time
Oh, and she never gives out and she never gives in
She just changes her mind

And she’ll promise you more than the Garden of Eden.
And she’ll carelesly cut you and laugh while you’re bleeding.
But she’ll bring out the best and the worst you can be.
Blame it all on yourself, cause she’s always a woman to me.

She is frequently kind and she’s suddenly cruel.
But she can do as she pleases, she’s nobody’s fool.
And she can’t be convicted, she’s earned her degree.
And the most she will do is throw shadows at you,
but she’s always a woman to me.

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