Odin musings

So, I started out putting together my handout on the runes, and ended up listening to an hour-long recent interview with Freya Aswynn on a British talk radio podcast. (It turns out she is still really on the ball, though not as actively involved in Heathen things as she had been for, oh, the last 30 years. Also, Freya Aswynn = the first modern Heathen devotional polytheist, eh?) All of which I only did because I was waiting for the WoW client to install on my Windows laptop, but hey–Odin moves in mysterious ways. Such is life of a Heathen on teh Interwebs.

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Nov 2015 misc

(Grabbing the rare opportunity to do some personal blogging.)

A Miscellany:

–One of the best things about having a Hela-dedicated boyfriend is that he is very tolerant of my whims. For example, while we were perusing the post-Halloween sale the other day, I found a random Nerf Thor’s Hammer. I carried it around with me through the store and occasionally smote him with it, yelling “Jotun!” While neither he nor Loki were amused, he tolerated it. I did get a lot of eye rolls, though. (I thought it was hilarious. Yay Heathen humor!)

–Speaking of my guy, he’s started a #30DaysofHela project on his blog, here.

–I”f you build it, they will come.” It’s been almost a year since I landed here, but now I finally have Heathens coming out of the woodwork. Here’s hoping they decide to stay and help form a local Heathen community.

–I had a nice short chat with my Lady this evening at a local park. I usually stop and sit by the river, but tonight I felt drawn to go into the extensive rose garden, which, like the rest of the park, is open 24/7. I don’t know why I was surprised to find Her there–it is a very popular location, with thousands of beautiful rose bushes of all different varieties, surrounding a picturesque wedding location–but there She was. She was in full Garden mode, a side to Her that I hadn’t seen previously but which makes perfect sense. (I get the feeling that the Midwest is really not Her natural habitat, not the way that it is Thor’s, for example. It kind of feels like She’s “just visiting”, or only loosely anchored here. I have no problems finding Her in California, though.)

She said:

Look for me in the roses.
Look for me in the thorn
and the prick;
In blood spilt and tears wept.
Look for me in the dark desires
seething in your soul
Which will never see the light of day.

Look for me in the garden.

I also asked Her about Her and Freyr’s obsession with pork, and She answered that pigs/boars were the most fertile and fruitful of animals, hence the connection. (She didn’t mention the tastiness factor, but I think that was assumed.)

–PantheaCon: The Facets of Freya ritual has been accepted again for next year’s Con. We’ll be late Saturday night, opposite a host of other sex- or death- related rituals and workshops, unfortunately. We’ll likely have a slight shake up in the specific Facets being presented and in the people in the ritual. Also, on one of the other nights at Con, I’ll be in EmberVoices’ Thrones of Vanaheim ritual, part TBD. I’m not yet sure how similar/different the Thrones ritual is going to be from the Facets ritual, aside from focusing on the four main Vanir instead of just Freya, but Freyr’s been heavy on my mind lately and I’ve been wanting to participate in a ritual for Him.

–SPOILER ALERT: I finally read the first Rick Riordan book in his Magnus Chase (Norse Mythology) series. I like it! He portrays the Norse gods with less superficiality than he did the Greeks. Granted, the age of the title character is much older than Percy was when the first Percy Jackson series started. And OMG was I excited when I found out who Magnus’ deific father was!!! Not a hard choice, I tell you. 😉 Given Riordan’s general dislike of the popular jock/warrior types, though, I guess it’s not too surprising. Also, he portrayed Freya in a much more positive light than he did Aphrodite (which honestly, I had been a tad worried about). And Loki is his complex, fabulous self throughout the whole book, doing classic Loki things. (Though how Riordan could ever have passed up a chance to utilize Loki to his fullest extent, I’ll never know–it’s like Loki was tailor-made for Riordan’s writing style. I guess this isn’t too surprising given that Riordan has stated that his original love was Norse mythology, not Greek mythology, and that he’s been wanting to write a Norse series for years.) My only real complaints so far are that this series is only set up to be a trilogy, like his Egypt series, and he’s sticking to his usual hero-plus-two-sidekicks vs a righteous-yet-misguided-compatriot formula. I’d have liked to have seen him use a larger central group with more deities represented. Ah, well. And the family connection to the Greek books via Annabeth Chase was really unnecessary and seems a bit forced. Every single thing that Riordan writes does not need to be tied so closely to the Percy Jackson universe. Also, Ratatosk will forevermore be known as The Squirrel, 🙂 It’s eerie, in many places Riordan describes a given god or other entity using pretty much exactly the same words as I would: for example, Ratatosk is “that shit-talking squirrel”, whom Riordan uses to great effect.

Sept. 2015 misc

Busy, busy, busy. My mundane job has kept me insanely busy these past few weeks. Too busy to think–or to grieve, which is a blessing sometimes. Here’s some thinky thoughts and processing that that I’ve been having recently:

–Two blogs. I’m going to add two new blogs. One will be a shrine of sort for the Vanir, name TBD. (Something about hearth and home, likely). The second one, called “A Community of Gods Surround Me”, will be my polytheist blog, where I’ll get to focus on things like polytheist theology and hot topics, and post about deity stuff and interactions from all pantheons. Once I stop working 50 hour weeks, I’ll get those up and going. Oh, and I’m going to keep the Freya one as it is. I’ll just add a short note to let visitors know that the blog won’t be updated very often for the foreseeable future.

–The changing seasons. One of the immediate downsides to connecting strongly with the land and cyclical god like Freyr is that the seasons change, constantly and dramatically, and I have no power to stop or otherwise mitigate their changing. Freyr is often seen to go “into the mound” in the winter and in Spring to have his “rebirth”. I already have Seasonal Affective Disorder, and I remember it being particularly bad when I was growing up here. Fall especially hit me hard, because I could see the end of the light and the warm times and knew there wasn’t a damn thing I could do about it. Conversely, I also love Fall–the colors, the smells, the food. It’s my favorite season. Sigh.

–I’ve started sponsoring people on Patreon. It makes me feel happy to do so.I don’t have a lot of spare $, but now that I blog regularly, I really see what a pain in the ass it is to also have a #dayjob and try to do anything spiritual or introspective. Here’s hoping that other people can also sponsor these authors and our combined contributions add up to enough to keep them afloat.

–Freya. I miss Her terribly but I got a bit of insight into the situation with her when I was at my 12-step meeting the other day. I’m struggling now because in my 12-step program, She’s my Higher Power, and I’m having to adjust to the fact She is not longer It. It’s more like “They all” are my HP, which let me tell you, is an adjustment. But what someone read at the meeting really resounded. Paraphrased, it said “Why do you think that the situation that you are in now is not ALSO part of Her plan?” And it hit me–duh, of course it is. She’s not gone for good; I’m still her House, and I’m housesitting. I’m deeply embedded with Her family, and I still catch faint glimmers of Her love and her messages. She put me in this situation for a reason. I even know a lot of what that reason is, which is more than most folks. Now I just need to do it. I am loved. I am taken care of. And it’s gonna be all right.  🙂

“I’m talking about the Shining Twins!”

From Pagan Revival Tent Preacher Heather Freysdottir:

“Mah friends, I wanna talk to you about Divinity. No, not the Man Upstairs. I’m talking about the Shining Twins. I’m talking amber and honey, grain and gold. ALL acts of love. All genders. All beings. For our Lord and Lady are fruitful and They give us nourishments of all varieties. Can I get a HAIL FREYJA?? CAN I GET A HAIL FREYR??”